Do you ever feel in a rut?
Like you are spinning your wheels and can’t move forward or maybe like you are climbing a mountain and just when you think you might reach the top, you stumble; only to fall further down then you were before?
I have been there….ok I am there in all honesty.
Lately it seems when it rains, it pours. I look back over the school year and every month we have been faced with some sort of obstacle to overcome or problem to solve. We get through it, but over time I can’t help but feel discouraged. I wonder if I can handle much more and although I remind myself that there are others out there dealing with far more life altering situations and tragic outcomes; I am still frustrated and overwhelmed. I am not wanting a pity party by any means, but I think we can all feel this way so I am sharing my thoughts in order to release and to relate.
I have decided I need to make a choice to find the good.
I think that is what it comes down to when we start (or continue) to feel distraught, inadequate and/or overwhelmed with life and what it is handing you. I can let my feelings dictate my mood, my thoughts and my whole life OR I can decide to look past the difficulty and focus on the other stuff; the good stuff. The things that make me smile, bring me joy and help me keep moving on. Sometimes these things are large beacons of hope and other times (and most often I think) they are little glimmers of light seeping into our daily lives helping us to keep going and allowing us to breathe. These are the things that make me smile and the things I want to focus on in my day, in my week, in my life.
I find joy and relief in these things so I am going to start listing them and for accountability and encouragement to you all I want to start posting my top five of the week; pictures, events, happenings, stories, ideas, anything that I loved and made me smile through my week.
Here are my Top 5 of this week (not in any particular order):
- This baby boy. Ok so if you follow me on Facebook than you probably know that this little boy has been struggling with the time change and yes that is a struggle, but in his happier moments he is the most loving child. His smile melts my heart and it really erases any stress I might be feeling. This picture was taken right after dropping Paisley off at school on her first full day back after breaking her leg and he just wanted to sit with me and lean on me (and take selfies…lol!).
- Lucky notes. As one of my family and marriage goals this year I am making an effort to write “love notes” to my kids and husband. I try to be somewhat creative in how I do this, but I like to remind them how much I care about them in writing; making them feel special and loved. This month I chose to write about why I am lucky to have each one of them on paper clovers that I gave to them on St. Patrick’s Day. I know this love note writing is about focusing on them and I love doing it, but it really helps me also by really looking at myself and how much of a blessing each one of them is to my life and to our family. The teacher in me loves the creativity of it also 🙂
- Little Reminders. Our house can be loud and hectic…we have two kiddos that love to laugh, play, run and scream. The noise is so constant that sometimes the quiet is what I notice most (when we get it! Ha!). I usually try to savor this quiet and take it in when I can, but I love the little reminders the kids leave me that remind me of their presence even when I am not with them or when I don’t ‘hear’ them. The note I found on the white board in the garage….Paisley likes to go out there and draw on Daddy’s white board in the garage 🙂 and the letter magnets in the water dispenser of the fridge…Brantley loves to move those around and that seems to be his new favorite spot to “store” his magnets. I love how these little things warm my heart <3
- Having Lunch at school with this girl! Paisley has taken a 180 lately and then back again. Her immediate determination and will to do well right after her accident was strong and then it seemed to falter. She was unwilling to do much by herself and of course it didn’t help that we all got sick with a yucky stomach virus. However since going back to school I have seen a more confident and independent girl! I love seeing her thrive despite her current circumstances! We enjoyed our lunch time this week and knowing she is doing well helps me worry less (even if just a little!)
- An empty kitchen counter. So in an effort to eat more healthy I had decided to cut up most of our veggies and fruit in ready to use pieces and containers so they are more accessible and easier to eat “on the go”. My plan got derailed this last weekend after our stomach bug forced us all to rest. I attempted this project on Wednesday of this week but only got part of the way through it (cutting all those veggies up takes time!) so many were left on the counter so I could take Paisley to her dance class (she watches right now since she is ‘out of commission’), make dinner, change the laundry…you know the weekly routine of a momma’s life. I came home expecting to still need to cut up veggies along with other things I left undone…the counter was empty and veggies were cut up and in the fridge. My husband had done it and now I had one thing off my list. It is the little things at this point, like cutting up veggies and cleaning a counter (plus the kitchen and he washed the dishes!) that he does that are so much more romantic in this season than flowers or big grand gestures. <3
This “Top 5” is exactly what I needed (and what I need) to get out of the rut, to make a change and to move on. I had to make the choice though to see it….we are not in control of our circumstances but we can control our choices. We can choose the good and we can choose joy.
What are your Top 5 Things this week? Share one (or all 5!) in the comments!!