Right now my days are full.
Right now once my feet hit the floor I am ‘on the clock’ until I lay back down again (and even then I am “on call”).
Right now my daughter needs her breakfast made and the baby is crying for his milk.
Right now she needs to be at school, but her teeth still need to be brushed and oh wait, I also need to do that.
Right now the baby’s diaper needs to be changed and the laundry does too.
Right now the dinner needs to be prepped and the list for the store needs to be written.
Right now the floor needs to be swept, but it probably won’t be done.
Right now the baby has gotten into his dresser and proceeded to scatter all of his socks around his bedroom.
Right now I finally have the baby down for nap, but there are messages to be returned, bills to be paid, calls to be made and meal planning to do.
Right now I have dreams and ideas but they are not fully realized or not at all.
Right now I get bits and pieces of my day to pursuing these passions and not the long blocks of time that I might think I need.
Right now I take what I can get.
Right now I dream of other opportunities or have aspirations of grandness…something other than the “right now”.
So I wait…my ‘hoped for’ life hangs in the balance of my right-now season of the constant “right nows”….
But what if ‘right now’ wasn’t happening….
What if I got the time; the opportunities were right there and the spinning world of now was gone or at least had stopped spinning somewhat.
Would it be all that I dreamed of?
Motherhood can be demanding; everything is needed and wanted “right now”. Except you have these ideas and dreams that feel unmet and unrealized.
My goals over the past year have changed from years past. I have listened to a calling and I want to be a faithful servant so I have pursued it to the best of my ability so far, but it can be defeating at times. I start to think it should be more ideal and less draining. It is easy to let bitterness rear it’s ugly head and to regret and even despise this season of right-now, because I do not feel I am fulfilling my goals…or the calling I feel so strongly inspired to do.
Does this sound familiar?
Maybe there is something you feel compelled to carry out and you are frustrated because your everyday life can “get in the way”.
But what if your everyday life is the way? As I heard wisely said in the past,
“God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called.”
Your everyday life, and using the time and energy that you have, will help you work toward and fulfill your calling. God does give us the tools and guidance in this season of right-now to help us progress towards and in the vocations he calls us to. We just have to trust and know it might not be how we envision it to be, but then again He was the one who called us to it in the first place. So in knowing that, we can relax and know with faithful, forward steps (no matter how small) God will take care of the rest.
So your hopes and dreams aren’t on hold, but are changed. You do not have to give up your passions, but they do become different. I think our perspectives need to change a bit; to make room for the ‘right now’ while we are living it, before our ‘right now’ becomes the past and we regret not living in the ‘right now’ when we had it.
Let’s let go of the expectations that trap us in a world of despair and longing, leaving us wishing for things to be different while forgetting to look at the present. And remember the present is a gift; one that can help us achieve the dreams as we go and later on down the road. That maybe part of our dream is our ‘right now’ life as well.
Some things to do to work on future dreams and fulfilling our callings while living in the season of right-now:
- Keep a notebook/journal of ideas. In the midst of my everyday life of right-nows, I can usually take a minute to jot down an idea or thought that comes to mind. For me it is usually a writing idea, but it can also be other items I run across like a book title I don’t want to forget. I always have my fun notebook available to me somewhere in the house so I can reach it and/or grab it (usually the kitchen counter). I try to do it pretty soon after I think of it because, as we mothers know, the season of ‘right now’ doesn’t wait too long before we are needed again!
- Find a time block in your day to work. This doesn’t have to be a whole day or even half of a day, but it could be 15-30 minutes of your day. And prepare for that block by knowing what you are going to work on because it will go quick and you don’t want to spend the whole time figuring out what you are going to work on. I know I have a short amount of time in those blocks, so to work toward these hope-for dreams I have to be pro active in the season of right-now in order to get a few steps farther than I would be otherwise. It might not be a long block of time, but a little bit can go a long way!
- Give yourself grace. Sometimes I plan on getting certain things done in a day…or a week…or even a month and it doesn’t happen. Sometimes the ideas in my notebook stay in my notebook for months or haven’t even been realized yet. Sometimes I don’t get the block of time I thought I would get in a day. It is ok. Life happens and there is always tomorrow. There is nothing worry can do to make it better, so let’s just move on and know it will all be fine.
Sometimes in this season of right-now we aren’t supposed to race forward with these ideas and hoped-for dreams, but focus on working toward and cultivating them within the dreams that are being fully realized in our right-now. We just need to remember to approach this season a little differently…possibly bringing our current dreams of right now into the light of our hoped for dreams of the future.
And so it goes….
Right now I pick up my daughter from school and she gives me a huge grin, proceeding to tell me about her day.
Right now the sun is shining and both kids sit in the front yard picking dandelions reminding me of how all of God’s creation is beautiful.
Right now my daughter needs a hug so she gets one and I also get one right back because she gives the best hugs.
Right now my children love me unconditionally.
Right now I am hearing my daughter learn to read and my son learn to speak more coherently every day.
Right now I get to rock a groggy, precious, tow-headed baby boy before placing him in his crib at night.
Right now I get to teach about prayer and sing about sunshine with my bright eyed brunette.
Right now I get to watch and learn about life from two little souls that have no idea they are teaching me more than I am teaching them.